Thursday, May 14, 2009

finally.... after almost a month

"so i have not had the time to blog for the last few weeks. exams and whatnot...."

that is what I would have said if I had updated like 3 weeks ago, but it has been almost a month. I am now in the middle of an increasingly annoying job hunt. (something that can be pretty soul crushing if you let it.) I have not really been making art for a few weeks. I have taken some photographs here and there, but nothing (until yesterday) that has any direction.

brooke and I shot in our new basement for the first time last night. It was a little strange because we were shooting something with me as the model; I am not sure if I like being the model of other peoples shoots. I do not know why, but it seems to feel a lot more vain than when I shoot myself.... now i know that does not make any sense. i should probably feel more vain if i am shooting myself, but somehow being alone with the camera allows me to get past that.

in a few weeks brooke starts grad school. it is already pretty weird to have all this free time. (well, fee if you dont count looking at craigslist every 5 mins) i now am going to have a lot of free time to myself that i can use to create art, or maybe make this blog into something useful. (or nap and watch re-runs on the simpsons online... lets hope for the art one)

here is one photo from the first shoot of the summer. hope this is the beginning of something good :)

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

automatic writing? first try

caffine does not always make me feel like i am more awake. but sometimes i jsut feel that i have mroe caffine in me than i need to feel awake. i do not want to feel awake right now . sllep feels more real to me that the world does sometime. why is it that caffinene makes the world feel so strnage. is it something in the coffee or within me? I always edit, no matter what it is that i am doing. i try nto to edit, but sometime it is just the method that makes me edit.and sometime sit is more of a gut reaaction to the stymulas that is at hand. i am trying to write what i feel not what i think i think what i think is some tiems what i do not wn to feel.

coffee makes typeing hard, and so does automatic typing

day...

carve...
ride...
home...
plug...
sleep...
wake...
snooze...snooze...snooze...snooze...snooze...
wake...
write...
waste...
write...
done...
late...
ride...
critique...
finally...
hunger...
late...
meet...
food...
move...
write...
waste...
write...
elaborate...
leave...
cook...
short...
store...
bike...
Ben...
home...
cook...
finish...
photoclub...
potluck...
El Topo...
confused...
tired...
goodbye...
coffee...
caffeine...
write...
blog...

bye...